"-Courage? It is to live that requires courage, not to die."
Fatality - Jan Toorop
Isaiah West Taber, Loie Fuller dancing (Late 19th century)
Gustav Klimt, Minerva or Pallas Athena, 1898
Just a reminder, I’m still gay and single.
Sometimes I want my gender to be soft and pretty like Anita Ekberg in La Dolce Vita, and then sometimes I want my gender to be a lumberjack. And then there are days like today when I want both.
in tenth grade: i'm gay but i'm a man i'm masculine and straight acting fuck fems i will be never be feminine
senior year of college: YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAS SLAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY
Feelings are Facts
It seems to me that every week I’m vacillating between two emotional extremes: extreme satisfaction and pleasure and then fear and insecurity. And I’m constantly fighting between those two. Sometimes I feel like rainbows and sunshine, and sometimes I feel like the overcast skies which shed the soft grey tears that I cannot.
Things I immediately want to say:
- I look pregnant
- I’m hardly lifting any weight
- it doesn’t look like my form is going to be awesome
Things that are actually true, matter, and what I need to say:
- I’m lifting weights
- I’m squatting
- I’m challenging myself
- and I moved up from just 45lbs (bar w/o any added weights) to adding 10lbs today
I always feel a little embarrassed when I don’t have as much weight as others on my bar BUT I can feel myself get stronger and that’s huge!
You have to start somewhere. Pushing past the embarrassment or feelings you need to all the sudden be a power lifter or hella strong is the first step. Next step strength and long life.
I’m gonna follow this beautiful woman cus I don’t wanna miss out on her awesome transformation every step of the way!💖
Aww! That’s so kind! Thanks 😊
I absolutely love this girl, and have since we first met. She’s one of the kindest people I know, and immensely inspiring to me. Not to mention a fabulous dance partner. Keep doing you, honey! Lift those runs, run that distance and I’ll keep cheering you on from the other side of the world!
Musings as I leave the clubs
"…Dammit. It’s 5 AM, and I don’t know which I want more: to eat or to fuck. Why can’t I just like fuck a pizza, or eat a dick or something? Why can’t I have both?"
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